that shit i just saw was exactly what i was thinking to myself the whole time and you posting that was great. triggered me to write this shit and i don’t care. i know i’m just writing this in the heat of the moment and regret it after. THAT’S WHY I WANT TO WRITE WITH NO CONSEQUENCES. but whatever.
YOU NEED TO KNOW IT’S NOT ALL ABOUT YOU. i don’t know how much i can say this more. i’m not gonna tend to you all the time, i can’t read your mind and know when the right time to talk to you is and when not to. you have that personality that you don’t like people, i get it! I JUST WISH I WAS AN EXCEPTION. and i always thought i was! but i’m not, and i get it! y’all heard the saying, “opposites attract”? well maybe these opposites are TOO EXTREME that we ain’t cohesive. i’m doing my damn best to stay happy and be positive. but quite frankly i’m starting not to give a fuck. with these little ass games and shit. you can be the most immature person at times and it annoys the shit out of me. it’s like you’re always trying to prove something to me. cool! i don’t even know what else to say i’m just getting so heated right now. for no reason really. I WANNA BE THERE TO COMFORT YOU. i want to be the person you want to talk to when you’re feeling down.. not part of the crowd that you want to avoid. and i thought i was, but i guess i’m not. and i tell you all the time that i’m trying my best to be the best significant other i can be.. but i’m thinking it isn’t me. maybe it wasn’t me the whole time, maybe it was maybe not.
i always thought that being in a relationship finally, would be so splendid. i thought i’d be like, “shiet, when i get a girl there won’t be NO problems because i’m so picky and i won’t settle for the just anyone.” blahblahblah. maybe i did, because i feel that i did. but there’s just those little things, ya know? it’s like you’re trying to live your life as if you’re still single. things have to change at least a little. i want to meet at the middle, because i feel like it’s me going more.
i just wanted to express myself. you’ll probably read this and all but whatever. this is why i wish somehwere somehow i could express myself without there being any consequences. because i do love you. i don’t care if we haven’t been together long enough but i feel like i honestly fell/am in love with you. all those times i tell you that, and that i miss you, i truly mean it. i’ve never felt this way about a girl in my life. and it’s just keeps me speechless everytime i think that you choose to be with me as well, and have the same feelings. i care for you whole heartedly. i talk about you all the time, i catch myself looking at old times we spend together and i think about your smile, your eyes, your everything. and it makes me so happy. it’s just some things you do just drive me crazy! i just wanna “shake the shit outta you!” (kanye reference). lol what’s funny, at this moment after i finally voiced how you make me so angry.. while i’m finishing this post i’m settling down right now. those cons DON’T EVEN COME CLOSE to outweighing the pros. those things ain’t even a thang. because i care about you so much. i really do.
i just want you to tend to my world, as i do to you. because you are my world.
