When people ask me about what I like best about having a girlfriend, well, no one really asks me this question but I like to pretend people do so I’m just going to explain what I would say to these pretend people 😊.
My favorite thing about having a significant other is the fact that she’s always there for me - literally always. The past 15 months we’ve been together a lot of things have changed and taken it’s shape. People have been going in and out of my life including family and friends. The people that used to be there for me aren’t in the picture anymore and vice versa. But even those people who have newly came into my life see themselves on their way out eventually.
The only person that I can say that has not only guided me into the right direction but also has allowed me to learn so much about myself is Teeny. I don’t think she realizes how much I actually mean it when I say that she is my world. Every little thing I do revolves around her someway somehow, even to the little things like, “Oh nah I don’t need to go to the gym today because Teeny didn’t go,” or “I don’t need to brush my teeth tonight because Teeny didn’t” and even positively - “Dang, Teeny got an A on her test… I GOT TO GET AN A+!” Just the little things like that, and I enjoy that my life is like that. My life has a bigger meaning than to myself.
When things get down in the dumps for me, she is always there to say the right things. She doesn’t necessarily have to agree with me but she guides me in showing me both sides of a situation. If I didn’t have her there for me I would always think I’m right, that my side is always the correct side and the other people are dumb not to realize.
It’s a shame that sometimes I don’t actually realize at times how great Teeny is to me. It’s something that I try to work on. Honestly, this girlfriend thing still feels pretty new to me because this has been the quickest 15 months of my life.
I’m just so happy that everything that happens she knows that I’m there for her and that she is ALWAYS there for me. And when I say always, she is always there.
Distance does pay its toll on us but that’s what makes things so rewarding. The fact that she is willing to sacrifice just as much as I am willing to sacrifice to keep this relationship we have strong, is one of the greatest things I could ever imagine.
I have no problem coming home so often. I have no problem not spending my weekends at JMU all the time. I know I’m one to have a good time, party and everything but my priorities will and forever will be (in order): God, Family, School, etc.
Yeah I’m known for going to VCU/757 all the time and I don’t really care. The person I sacrifice gas money and long hours of driving that I go see is worth every little ounce of that. All the people at JMU/VCU/etc don’t even come close to adding up to the significance and importance Teeny has in my life. So yes, if the opportunity arises for me to drive somewhere to see her then I’ll take it. I’m pretty much 100% sure there isn’t anything worth staying at JMU that would make me not jump on the opportunity to see Teeny.
But lately, I’ve been going home on the weekends. And I have no problem with that either. My mom is THE most important person in my life. And lately she’s been needing some extra love and care because of her Ima/mother being really sick (my grandmother/lola). She texts and calls me at school wondering when I’ll be coming home again and I wish I could come home every night for her. Whatever it takes to make her happy, she tells me how much she misses me because she needs someone else to help her in cleaning, mowing the grass - anything there is I could do to relieve her stress I wish I could do in a heartbeat.
I know I really didn’t need to explain myself is saying why I’m always traveling on the weekends, but it is what it is. I do have my priorities in check and I practice what I preach. Not saying people need to start doing what they say, but I’m not sure if they realize partying on weekends is always going to be there.
Maybe I will. Maybe certain things in life I’m happy I can. How blessed and lucky am I that I can take things for granted in life. How lucky am I to not have to worry about “if” I’m going to eat today but “what” am I going to eat today. Do I wanna spend money or just cook. How lucky am I that sometimes I forget to call my parents/grandparents and see how they’re doing - and when I do they’re right there to pick up. How lucky am I to have a daily struggle in the morning asking myself what should I wear today.
Something about, “Don’t take something for granted,” just doesn’t sit well with me. Because in a way, we’re so lucky to be able to take things for granted. Sure, I know what they’re trying to say - be grateful for what you have because in a second it can be taken away. But why is society and everyone always focused on the unknown future when what you have is what you have for some sort of reason so just be happy with it - just be happy with you.
I can’t really think of a substitute staying for “Don’t take things for granted,” but I hope someone does. Something that doesn’t say enjoy something for the sake of enjoying it before it’s gone - but to enjoy something because you can… and actually ENJOY it.
Mathew 6: 1-6, 16-8 - Lent isn't a New Years Resolution
… “When you fast, do not put on a miserable face as do the hypocrites. They put on a gloomy face, so that people can see they are fasting. I tell you this : they have been paid in full already. When you fast, wash your face and make yourself look cheerful, because you are not fasting for appearances or for people, but for your Father who sees beyond appearances.” …
At least for the Catholic faith, to me, people don’t realize the whole aspect of Lent. Especially in the way of social media now-a-days. If they actually listened to the gospel during Ash Wednesday, it explained that during the season of Lent the whole point of Lent is to be closer to the Father. It’s at this time if people haven’t had a great relationship with God - they work to build a stronger one. And if people haven’t been going to church, then start going and actually listen. If they have, then they maintain it. The whole point is to build a strong(er) relationship with God.
What people tend to show what they think Lent is about is the season of “giving up”. People think it’s the season of dieting. People think it’s the wake-up call to the New Year’s resolution that they failed to keep up with. People think it’s the season to get attention for showing what they give up.
That’s what kind of annoys me most about this. You shouldn’t have to feel the need to announce to the world every single time what you gave up. If you’re going to practice something, understand what you are practicing. Understand that Lent isn’t the time to brag about what you are giving up and how you want everyone to know how amazing you are.
Yes, I get the idea that any sacrifice is better than anything. But don’t use Lent as an excuse to finally start something you’ve been putting up. Lent isn’t a New Year’s resolution.
When I think of break, I immediately think of solitude. I can lay in bed all day and only have to get up for food and using the restroom. If only there was an actual place that existed where I feel comfortable and relaxed.
At the same time, I am happy to be spending this break with my dear. If I could get my solitude with but not excluding honey then it would be perfect. We could take on the world, just the two of us.